7 things about myself

 I was tagged by my beautiful friend, Kazrina. Here, I need to describe 7 things that I would like to share about myself. It took me a while to compose this post as I really need to sit down and think about what I am going to write. So, here goes:

• I still miss my father something fierce. There is this emptiness in my heart that nobody can ever make it whole again. Even though it has been almost ten years since he passed away, I still think about him. He was a wonderful father. I developed my passion for books because of him. He was also a voracious reader. Everyday, without fail I would read prayers for him.
• I used to have a fine temper. This is the one thing that I don't like about myself. Even now, I would cringe when I thought how thoughtless and selfish I was. When I got angry I would just lash out especially to the ones I love. However, the process of aging has mellowed me.Ha!Ha! It also takes effort, prayers and self control to be where I am today. I am able to reason out and think things through. Once in a while, the old me would resurface but I consciously wrap it under control. I am a happier and calmer woman now.
• I love children. Always have and always will. When my first child was born, I didn't sleep a wink that night. I was so overwhelmed by this strange yet wonderful emotion. The same thing happened when my second and third child were born. I felt so contented that I was close to tears. They are my truest treasure.
• One thing that I like about myself is I am a positive person. I seldom wallow in self pity. Things happen for a reason. I am of the opinion that I can be sad but I need to go forward. Negative thoughts can only bring more damage. Alhamdulillah, life has been good to me.It has its usual ups and downs but generally I am at the right place at the right time.
• My childhood years were some of the best years of my life. Together with my sister cum best friend Zura, my brothers Anuar and Faizal, we sailed through our childhood years with picnics at the playground, watching free movies during the weekends, cycling our faithful choppers here and there and learning how to swim at the Pulapol's swimming pool. We were very close to each other. In fact, we still are. Even though, money was never enough, we never asked for things that my father couldn't afford to buy. Back then, everything was so simple and uncomplicated. Now, my siblings have carved a niche for themselves. I am so proud of them.
• I have this dream that someday when I have lots of money I plan to build a Reading Room. This room will be filled with all types of books and magazines. I would buy dark brown book shelves made of teak wood. In the middle of the room, I will place cosy armchairs and leather recliners for the readers to enjoy reading. How I wish this dream could come true.
• Being married to my husband has changed me a lot. It's not like "The Taming of The Shrew " kind but I feel that my husband has managed to bring out the best in me. His easy going ways and calm demeanour has made me a better person. 

That is all I have right now.  Those 7 things have helped me to become who I am. Due to that, I am forever grateful to the people who have touched and shaped my life. Kak Azah and Cuda, you are tagged!